Rain or Shine . I just have to be in silence .

Cant take it anymore .
The everything that's happening .
cant breathe ..
Im about to lose it .
choose to keep my emotions within .
No one knows who i am .
Only me .

So another long day .
& yeaps , there was cca , didnt have court for me to play so i just slacked around . Found baby outside with his friend . Chewyan aiya , dont know how spell her nama la -.- went to blk 8 find people then came back to cc , slacked with her then went over find baby . Shavon nuer call me , so she pei-ed me slack with bi awhile then baby went off with his friends so me , shavon , baby & puipui zou ma went over to blk 8 .

i dont feel like continuing .
there's is something waiting for it's chance to blast .
i need to tell someone about it before i go crazy .
bonnie , where are yous ?
i need your listening ears .
i dont want anybody else anymore .
i dont want to be in the middle of anyone ,
no i just need my best friend now .

Tag Replies .
Irvine - {:
Crap - hi .
Hanny - gotten well le .
Lu - hello ah teo ~
Celia - thanks .
Irvine - {:
Qinying - as always , average .
Weijie - hello ass .
Irvine - never .
Pearl lynn - hellos {:
Crap - ok
Irvine - Yes .

More tags are still wanted .

Maybe love really is an illusion .

Maybe by the time you realise , i'll turn negative again .
So i rather you think hard now .
Because if this continue , i believe the me now will disappear soon .
That's all ..

Past can never beat the present .

& yes this portion of the post will be about me .

so yeahs , my life has been pretty grateful lately . no troubles , nothing :D baby , my friends , my family & i are all getting along . school was alright , no more unwanted troubles & im working hard in studies .

so well , had a survey after school & went home with bitch , bing & seeling . after they left i was alone so i had a little thought of my past & presence & what i want in future .

6 months before today , i was deeply in love with a boy who found his love . The me that he knew , was stubborn & wanted everything my way . I was childish & ignorant . The world revolves around me . & i MUST get what i want , pretty fuck up eh ? well that was me . but after he left 4 day before my 14th birthday , i remembered it clear . It sure hit me hard . I had a year of hell , keep wishing one day he'll turn back to find me . Everyone around me like fatty told me it's just too late . I didnt appreciate what i had & when i did , it was gone . But i kept on holding on , i just couldnt let go . I would hide under a pillow & cry , think about the happy times we had & how i worried when he was going inside boys' home . & i even made a promised that even if it's two years without him i'll wait . But look where we are now ? it hasnt been two year , just one . we didnt make it through . We used to say we love each other like ... well , beyond love ~ but look where we are now . Reality is cruelty , it can gives you hell . But it teaches yous a lesson worthwhile :D

Because after that one damn it long year of torture without him , the tears , the heartache slowly faded away . Got a hold of myself , picked myself up . Yes i didnt get over it BUT i manage to move on . So i met this boy of mine . We had a really bad start broke up after two week & patched up at 20 january this year . Well , baby had been very nice , letting me & everything . & i kinda misused his nice-ness & something happened . Baby started feeling tired & felt like letting go . But baby shown me something no one did . He gave me a second chance to make miracles , make a future with him :D & yes , we manage to work it out .

Till today , my sixth month with hubby is still super awesome :D yes , there are always tiff here & there . JEALOUSY always strike me . But baby made me let go of my hardest thing in life . Baby made me realise that the past wasnt the best . Baby made me realise he is the best for me . hahas , baby made me realise a lot . Baby gave me the willingness to change , to be someone that can have a happy ending . hmms , no not ending but & a happily ever after . Something that last forever :D

Baby & i are going to make wonders ! He's my one & only love , Lim Wee Kiat <3 He's my future & he knows that too ~

Cheryl has changed , somewhat better than before .
BUT STILL ! i do get nasty because my hot & short temper still exist ! :x
alrights , that's all for today . off to do my homework :D
Readers , please do tag . My blog since to left with half life .
OH ! im interested to do freelance photography , who want go photoshoot with me ?
My blog is dying .

Hellos people will be posting two portions today . One for myself & one for a little girl :D

So , recently i just went to chack on my nuffnang & came across this little news about this little name charmaine . She's four years old this year . she's really very young but she is diagnosed with 4th stage neuroblastoma . so nuffnang is carrying out a donation for this little because if she seek local treatment , her chance of survival is only 10% - 20% . yeahs , it's very little .

So the team handling this donation has managed to get a donation of s$500k & bringing this little girl to new york for her treatment . She's a little girl with a big heart fighting for her life & we should play a part by helping her .

Every dollar counts remember ? & of course , nuffnang & i are not making any profit in this donation . Every cent will be dedicated to charmaine's family . If you want to find out more , feel free to visit http://www.nuffnang.com.sg/forcharmaine . i'll be putting up this link so that if the post if in the archives , you still can click on it .

Take care charmaine , God Bless You :D

the world revolves around us boy .

hellos {: imma happy little girl today !

so school was normal . i guess :/ hahas , same routine . huiyuan got sent home D: & well i was having a bad flu but i didnt went home cause i felt it a waste of money having to see the doctor again . cause i was under medication so yeahs , i dont find the need to get another mc ._. waste my time & money . zz ..

so after school . rain was damn heavy D: bitch & seeling pei-ed me to take the bus 307 . they went lot & i went to find baby at limbang . funny funny ! when i dropped off i look very steady . walk so aizai :x like nothing wrong then suddenly baby put his arms on my bag then i suddely slipped & fell hard on my butt . i could feel my butt kai hua lo D: baby & i kept on laughing even when im posting now im still laughing :x i just didnt want to get up cause it was so funny that i laughed till my stomach cramped up . so i forced baby to sit beside me on the floor :x & the rain got heavier so i ignored and just lie under baby's arm until i felt that my skirt was damn damp so i decided to go baby's house to dry my skirt ._. funny shit . held baby so tight on the journey to his house super kia si . funny us :x

then pei-ed baby slacked awhile at his house i went back to lot one to buy dinner back for my parents . saw kian & ignatiaus on the way back {: hahs , daddy came to pick me up . im a lucky girl . kept laughing upon thinking about the incident . it feel lucky to be under baby's arm under the rain . thou it's pain & rather embarrassing :x

hahas , nothing much to say , i havent had the time to upload pictures . so when im free i'll do all the uploading & it'll a picture post . well , planning to work with wordpress & leave blogger for good but it's so bloody complicated . fcuk :/

met joy got my stuff & home-ed audi-ed as usual {:
tired soul , tired mind , tired of being me .
nothing much happened so yes , im going to post in my private blog where everyone is curious of what is in it .

for you to know how much this love means , is like waiting for rain in a drought .

pain ? it's not yous who feels it . because you just shown it to me .

PRIVATE BLOG UPDATED !

off to audition . i cant be bothered by shyts surrounding me now .
living my life happily .
WITH OR WITHOUT ANYONE !

A new step in life .

hello human :D

i got sent home from school . im sick D: i was suppose to meet baby today but i couldnt even get out of bed . zz ._. so i've got fever , flu , sore throat , cough & infection on my nose D: so yeahs , im to rot at home for a few more days . hopefully , i can return to school on monday lo :D

havent zilian lately because my nose infection is so jialat ! hais D: well well , it's life ! zz ~ waiting for baby to finish tuition so i can text him & im going to play audi later :D

i cant wait for baby to message me ! im so bored ! my mama dumped me at home D: she sms-ed her friend saying that she's damn bored so they jio-ed her out but i cant go out D: im sick like a loser -.- dammit ~

lalas , im off to audi :D

Tag Replies :
Louis - i'll self invite soon & i'll tag yous soon . bring your dog out someday . i wanna see ! & hope everything is fine alright :D takecare .
Crap - hahas , silly ~
Irvine - i didnt forget yous lo ~ im not that bad lo -.-
Enze - hahas , it's good to know what yous want in future mahs :D

Baby 我爱你 .

如果你还爱着我 ，
如果我们真的有云芬 ，
请你不要离开我 ，
因为我真的很爱你 。

i really love my boy :D
he can piss me off ,
he can irritate me ,
i still love him .
forever & ever ,
we'll stay as one .

Tags Replies !

it's been decade since i reply a decent tag :\ i hope that's not the reason for the decreasing TAGS !

Crap - Thank glg :D
Irvine - hahas , i know im a rawker ;D i save yous ~ hahas , im a saviour ! that makes me a rawking saviour !
Huiyuan - if i kazua , i wont so scared of kazua lo , so yous should be the big fat kazua :D
Hanny - LINK LE LA ! D: call me bitch D: screw yous .
PASSERBY - THANKS :D im all cheered up :D yous are ?
Louis - the thing is , no one knows it -.- hahas , yous locked your blog too eh .
Ass - hellos :D yous are tat ?

Happy 6th Monniversary Baby !

yes , it's my sixth month & im happy :D i shouldnt share my joy cause it something that me & baby shares only :x jealous right ? i know you are :D well , caught harry potter & the half blood prince . my dearest old man died D: i really hopes he revived or something . love him like insanity D: cute little old man . hahas , the rest of my happy moments with baby will be kept unknown :x

so now , let's talk about me :D ah yes ME ! im having difficulty talking , eating and doing my 招牌动作 :o so sad lo ~ cannot zilian with my bitch cause my face seems more distorted than before D: boohoo ~ but at least baby still loves me , so yeah , im cool about it :D no need pretty , need baby can le :D

OH , i so totally wished homeworks were asexual , so it can do itself !

i mean it , seriously . the amount of homework for me is terrorizing & you know that i've just started working hard & everything which makes it ten times worst ! but im still trying & i really hope it pays off . thou i didnt do well during MYE , i tried & improved with high fail for my a math & manage to pass my e math . so yeahs , im just hoping that i can at least get a 60 pass for EOY . God bless me :D

i wanna go raffles mrt there ! heard from school counsellor there are some super HAWT bibles there . i've been looking for a bible that has a super CUTE leather cover . shall ask baby pei me go find some other day :/ as for now off to mug my geography :D im in the mood today so mugging should be a piece of cake !

SYONARA ! BYEBYE ! 再见 ! :DDDD

LOOK AT MY HAND ! it's so damn fair ~

bro having bad hair day ._.

mingfei will love me for this pic . it's hot :D

so hot seys :x

hahas , i look horrible in the picture ._. i was sick that day :x my most favourite is definitely the last one :x bitch is so going to kill me upon seeing this :x ohmys ~

today woke up with a very sad mood D: but baby assured me something & i guess im better now . i hope :\ i have ton of homeworks that havent been completed ! shall start mugging now :D

• Biology Theory Book
• Biology Ten Years Series
• Social Studies SEQ

OFF TO MUG :D

tomorrow is my sixth month ~ WOOSH ~ half a year gone like that .

being denial bring me nowhere .

hmms , i might be posting a little lesser because i'm going to be in my private blog more often :D so yeahs , dont miss me yeahs ~

still ~ i hope to recieve tags more often . when i have hot new peekures , i will post it up & still , my daily living will be posted , so happy reading :D hmms , ill post later in the night :D LOVE !

Reluctant to hear the word , try .

long day :/ super pissed off by homeworks , i dont know whys . having super bad headache & i've been taking pain killer like it's candy ._. baby help-ed me buy a new packet just now as i was dying in class .

somethings really wrong with me . it's not i dont want to study , it's not i dont want to pay attention . it's not i hate the teachers or what {only one} it's just there's something very important that is missing that makes me so moody & i just dont have the heart to memorise or give a damn about my studies . im not lazy . because if i was , i would have just pon-ed school like insane & wouldnt have changed in the first place . so what's that god damn thing im missing ? arghs , i just seriously need that motivation because i have no bloody motivation , & sometimes it isnt i dont want to do homework , i just cant bloody that amount of homework in one go , i'll lose the will & i seriously have no god damn motivation . fuck it .

arghs , so after chemistry cabbed to find baby . & yeahs , we were playing like a bunch of baboon . baby & i hadnt laugh so hard ever since , forever ? hahas ! but it's great that everything is falling into place la {: im just hoping for time to pass fast . i just want to do well . get into the god damn course i chosen & done .

bus-ed home with a very bad mood hoping someone would cheer me up but i hardly talk to anyone now -.- only baby , bonnie & joy . ACTUALLY that's everyone i talk to ._. because im under the no boys policy {: & i hope baby is following his no girls policy too {which i doubt he will} whatever :/

so here's my post for the day , ending with a super bad & horrible mood . sorry eh , but anyways lets just end today like that . bye .

yes , im upset .
whys is it only a try ?
it wasnt a try before .
it was a "i'll do anything for you"
it's no longer that .
so why am i still doing anything for yous ?
im sorry for being unfair to yous in the past .
but must it affect our future .
i dont know ,
would yous tell me please ?
sorry i wanted yous to pick yourself up fast .
but you're not the only one that needs me ,
because i need yous even more badly .
do yous know ?
honestly , no .
but i just love yous so damn much .

yes , had a awfully long day :/ hmms , lesson were as usual but stupid me forget to bring part of my homework & i had to stand up for one hour plus for math ._. & guess what ? when i came home to search for it , it's missing , how down in luck for me :/ i must be organised !

so after school went to prepare for cckss idol , then around 2.30 went to detention cause i was late on the previous day -.- damn it . school starts at 7.45 i woke up at 7.15 & i live at bukit timah , yous can imagine how rush i was .

so i served till 3.30 then i went to tell mr kong that there is a mistake ~ i only late 3rd time ._. so he let me off {: before that had a little chat , hahs , my little secret ~ dont tell yous all ~

so went off for cckss idol with huiyuan & it dragged on till like 5.30 because we had to wait for the result & worst was i didnt realise that my phone was haywire-ed until like 5 plus then i restarted my phone & my mother screwed me . it wasnt my fault right ? the phone seems to be working perfectly who knew what's wrong with it . i honestly dont feel im in the wrong & i even explained myself . if yous find that im finding excuses , then im sorry to say im not & it's the truth so yeahs , believe it or not it's up to yous {:

so yeahs , i was damn upset but my singing but im lucky that i was in . i almost freaked out when i sang , like i was about to pee on my pantzxz :x ohmy , it feels horrible . i thought i was out for sure but lucky me :x but i was super sad for huiyuan she sang so freaking nice . the take off shoes song :x {inside jokes} neverminds im huiyuan number one supporter :D teehee !

so sms-ed my dearest baby around 5 plus till i reached home & got busy with my heymath quiz , i passed surprisingly . this is a sign ! i must start doing well for my maths , God is giving me this opportunity to shine once again ~ im not going let him down ! CHERYL WORK HARD !

my wish is for baby to say ,
"baby i love yous a lot"
& "baby i swear to be with yous forever"
if only , it happened now ..
i wish time proves everything .

1. Permanent By David Cook

2. Heels Over Head By Boys Like Girls

3. Falling For You By Colbie Caillat

4. I Do Not Hook Up By Kelly Clarkson

5. Halo By Beyonce

6. Hero/heroine By Boys Like Girls

7. Don't Trust Me By 30h3

8. You're Not Sorry By Taylor Swift

9. Battlefield By Jordin Sparks

10. Hurt By Christina Aguilera

11. Second Chance By Shinedown

They are not in order :D sorry :/ teehee , but here are all the title ! love ya ! post laterz !

things seems to be getting better ? i hope it does lo ..
six month is nearing and im making a little something for baby :D
& i wanna be with baby till i turn old & wrinkled .

Here's the tag replies :
Kellie - call me when free & i'll tell yous :D
Qinying - hellos :D hmms , average got my ups & downs .
Crap - hehes , i think things are turning around :D maybe my love will work out afterall , happy happy !
Weekiat - yes baby dearest :D
Irvine - LOLs ! happy tagging then :D

Tag Replies :
Crap & irvine - alrights :D 180 degree it is .
N. XiangTing : hellos :D hahas , i wont waste my time getting angry at her la :D so no wrinkles for me !
Crap - dont look at it bahs , cause that shows my emotions .
Pearl lynn - hahas :D & im glad you agree with me that women is so damn horrible !
Rachel - who's your sister ?
Celia - hahs , yous suay lo , have to see her ugly face D:
Xiaohui - Thanks :D
Crap - updated :D

Tears speaks the pain

i hope that everything turns back to 20.01.2009 & we'll start off happily . i still love you & you do too .

Reality means cruelty.

i still love you where did yous go ?

Fuck !

something just made my mood turned a 360 . i've lost the mood to post , im sorry . the pictures will be delayed . FUCK !

Lord , forgive me .

hahs , long day & tiring one .

fuck day , sorry for the vulgarities used but it seriously like one FUCKING DAY ! i lost my motivation to go school & study well because miss SHANTHINI fucking pissed me off . thanks eh . i dont care that if she reads this or whatsoever because i know everyone knows how i am .

i was just leaning on my hand to read that bloody magazine she gave me & the wind pierced thru my eyes so my contacts got freaking dry & she came nagging at me say im feeling SLEEPY ! heys , please la , i say contacts DRY right ? cant yous just leave me alone . never see people blink before ? awww , sadded ! so she say i was giving her CRAP . look women , if blinking is crap , i will try my best to not blink when im in your class , maybe i'll set a new guiness world record eh ? if i do , i'll tell the world yous helped :D so yeahs , i used the stupid bitch on her & she went RAH !

cant be bothered , i bet there'll be a maniac war if this was seen by CCK cher . but seriously i feel i no wrong . because i didnt want to pick a fight with her . i just want my school life to be peaceful . so ya , yous brought it to yourself . even brendan said ," dont care her la ." it just shows ~ hahs !

hehes , so i needed to pei-ed louis to do something :D & i went by a couple ring box that is so HOT . so i texted baby straight away that i want a ring but this time with a box , maybe baby will give me a surprise :x excited ~ maybe im just too exaggerate . baby cant afford much right now , so i wont blame him .

baby must be really busy cause he aint replying my text ! it must be because of his dnt :\ poor baby :\ jiayous okays , must do super well for o level & you'll be all mine & your eyes will be on ME & ME alone , no books , no dnt , no nothing just yours truly :x

& when that day comes , i have many demands for yous ! hahas , i'll post pictures later . got me , got jack , got bonbon :D hahs , toodles !

hahas ! i got my phone back & it's camera seems better so .. back to what I DO BEST ! im zilian-ing with my bitch again :D hohos ! so i was studying hard as usual but to my luck , mr tan JJ wasnt here to nag or lecture us so , super relax history class & well , chinese was a bore as usual :/ im glad if i do well i dont have to take chinese for the rest of my life after secondary , i just simply STINK AT IT !

so i came home , got my homework dont & played audi . what a low life bitch i am D: hahas , who cares . crap pei-ed me awhile then went to play that scary L4D with his friends , whereas for baby , he had a tough tough day so he slept early :D played with TAT & his girl :D oh & there's this guy who adores me ! TEEHEE ! bet baby sure get jealous like #$%^&)*&^%$#@#$%^ when he sees this :x but i love baby & he knows it :D

hahas , im chionging audi like one ass ~ hoping to get to level 10 , 100% ! WOO ! haos la , enough of the audi talk :D i guess it late le , shall shut down my comp & end my day here :D thou the day didnt start out well , people around me sure makes it end well . thanks everyone ! i love you guys !

p/s. i realise my blog has more tagger :D well , i really hope to have even more :D i dont bite so chill & just leave a tag :D i like make friend & im an ultimate zi high person :D you'll sure enjoy my presence or just find me super irritating :x which i hope you dont :/ TEEHEE ! shall stop crapping here :D

oh ! wanna add me on audi mahs ? xBabyCx :D love & goodnights :D

im super down suddenly .
that struck of death just hit me , bloody hell .

i miss baby like one fuck & it'll be another million years before i can see him again , WONDERFUL .
so yeah , im super paranoid now & I JUST NEED SOMEONE HERE THIS INSTANT .
that bitch from audi was quite lucky cause she didnt pissed me off now because im on the verge of kicking people asses now . noobshyt loser .

stupid baby , sleeping . stupid buddy , just went home . stupid korkor , phone no batt . stupid crap , wow-ing . stupid bitch , bathing . lols , stupid me , blogging . PARANOID , im going to bed & roll around see if i FALL !

they are my love ! im so bored , just audi-ed finish , almost picked a fight with a bitch in audition .. pissed .

talking to korkor ~ lazy post , no mood ..

Tag Replies :
Geyun - Hehes , i cant wait toos ! ~
A.XiangTing - Hahas , thanks :D i'll link yous up soon !
Noelle - I played with yous le la ! Stupid beebee ! :/
Crap - Sorry la D: mai emo ! {:
Anna - Hahas , booby booby ~ meet up soon ! Hahs , i will & yous take care too ~
sdgjshfgj - Hahs , cause i hardly update that whys readers starts getting real bored .

Some people just have a BIRD BRAIN ! what a birdy couple {:

so yeahs ~ i haven't been posting much & i haven't upload my pictures D: so NO PICTURE ! hahs , im quite done with my dearly blogskin :D quite happy with it , tell me how to improve yeahs ? hahas .

im audition-ing like nuts lately & im going to continue now ! hahs , currently talking to cheryl tan :D so lalalas ~ blog laterz !

baby & i seem to still stand on thin thread . so yeahs , i hope things get better ;D
post laterz :/

Did a little changes to my blog but im not completed with it yet .
shall wait till i have the time or when im not that lazy & tired then i'll continue on with it .
planning to make an awesome blog skin :D
hahas , have fun tagging !

H1N1 rises to 878 ..

when wll this torment stop ?
he used to willingly give up his life his entire life for me .
now ? nothing .. im hurt , i just dont wish to live my life anymore
i want him to be the LWK he was in the past .
hais , no matter what i cant stop loving him .
i can only await for that day to come back .
fuck off his friends , fuck off his family & only me .
selfish me that wants him all to me .

hold me close to yous ,
make me yours .
i want to feel my importance
& i want it from yous love .

♥./ Aloysius Lim Wee Kiat

we have set our differences aside .
it's love we want to share ,
we both love each other very much .
but im demanding because i feel insecure .
it's life , i dont always get what i want .
for instance , today :D
until now i still wish he would do it for me ,
prove he loves me & could do anything for me .
but it's selfish , so yeahs ..
we're back together & sixth month coming soon :D

God Bless Us !

love ? it sure does exist but it messed my life up .

yes , i love my aloy .
but things aint working out .
this made me realise quite a lot .

hmms , back to audition bahs .
go find audition friends slack .
stupid crap say i bully him ._.
LOSER ! alright .

post up peekazxz taken in school on friday .